I wonder if oblivion hurts?
Tattered frays beckon me to see
Beyond this land of shadows
Past the treeline
In this world of trees
I can't see the forest anymore
Weird Like GrammarThe weirdest things make me happy
Like being alone in public,
And standing in line for coffee
Wanting to get something different,
But chickening out and saying,
I'll have what she's having"
And that day she was having a drink called Ramona
Constantly changing her hair
In a world where people stare
informally at the informality
Of ordering someone else's drink for them
I memorized yours
With ever passing day,
I gave myself away
In take out boxes
And small recipes for tea
You told me stories of the people you knew
I told you stories,
Secretly about you
The strangest things made me happy
Like the smell of pesto, marinara, and dish soap
Because when you came smiling in from work
You smelled remarkably like
A dishpan pizza
We'd lay on the bare couch
Spraying ourselves with soda or pizza sauce
The CageWhen did we stop playing pretend?
Was it the day all our task
Became a cast
Around the broken form of a body
Burdened to it's very core
With what the future held in store?
Did we lose our inner child?
Like that time we last our moms
Int the supermarket
How we scrambled trying to find it,
But it was gone
Talking to an old friend a few rows over
We stopped playing,
And stopped learning how to grow
The lessons we learned in school
Where just enough to teach us
How not to make fools out of ourselves
We lined our childhood achievements on shelves
Like little league trophies
And instead of finding new ways to be proud
We burn out
Making money for a man
Who doesn't know our name,
And would never care to know it
We are numbers on a screen to him,
But we have fire inside
If we only ever cared to show it
It's comfortable in the cage
Choose to live there if you must
But it's still a cage
LullabyI dreamed a dream
And so it seemed
That I would die while dreaming
A peaceful end
New to begin
So is with every new beginning
My ReligionI just have to accept
As I climb the ladder to self reliance
That failing use of my heart
Is just a broken endless theory
Of a broken endless science
The introduction of my fears
Of being alone and shattered
To the suffering of the world,
So I suppose I shouldn't complain
When you disappear
First for a month
Then for a year
I told you how abstract you were,
I meant it as a complement
You were just the perfect amount
Of beautiful and terrible
Your breath was the wind,
And your teeth,
Injected thunder into my veins
For once the pain I felt wasn't internal,
But distance became a desert
You left me praying for a thunderstorm
Clinging to the side of the mountain
Begging for a little rain
So I climb,
maybe a higher elevation
Will please those angry gods
That continue to keep you from fo
Dear, HeartBrace for impact
I'm sure you aren't recovered
From all the turbulence,
And here we go again
Though the asteroid field of human emotions
So if you can be troubled
And don't spill your drink
Because I'm sure you'll be drinking
When all the moonlight spills,
And the fingertips slip
From their holsters,
Down you go
Pierced and bleeding
By the camera flash
While she rides off into the sunset,
But lets not fade to black just yet
No, you've got so much left to hurt for
So play some Johnny Cash
Let the man sway you to sleep
Sleep has always been better
Than reading what she wrote
Than opening that last letter
MirageYour heart is a mirage;
Mine a thirsty traveler,
And you look like every drink
Of every drop
Of every desert spring
But when I get too close
Leaving me gasping
MomentumIt was never her hair
It was never her smile
It was never the burning
She left of desire
It was the way that she painted
My world with her mood
It was all in how she spoke
In the way that she moved
I Deserve BetterYou left me crying one evening
In the Autumn rain
Cursing teardrops on my phone,
And in my heart I already knew
That you weren't coming home
Still I tried my best
Working to fix our love
That should have been an amputee
Because when something dies
You cut it off
You don't leave it to fester and bleed
It still breaks my heart
When I think of you,
And I know we've both moved on
So I hope someday you read this note
I hope you see that you weren't wrong
I prayed so long for a miracle
After you left me for dead
I know it may seem immature
There was nothing to do but beg
And a nameless god delivered
He sent me sex, company, and lust,
And held back love
Until my heart was healed
Until again I learned to trust
Wherever you are I wish you well,
And that's not easy to do
It's hard to not wish vengeance
After all you put me through
I wish you hope
I wish you luck
I wish you love, but not from me
Without the pain
I would have never seen
What it means to truly be free
After MeI bet he's warm and inviting
I bet he has strong arms to wrap you tight
I bet he smells like work and wonder,
And I bet you forgot about me tonight
I'd say you've made a life without me
I'd say moving on wasn't all that tough
I'd say that you don't always cross my mind,
And I really wish that lie was enough
But the words unsaid still sting,
And I hate myself for crying
Tears that you never see
Knowing how much you'll love
The man after me
I bet you're saying that it won't happen
Because you've never felt like this before
I'm sure you think I'm being ridiculous
But you've never seen me broken
You've never seen me bleeding
Screaming on the floor...
The words unsaid still sting,
And I hate myself for crying
Tears you'll never see
Knowing how much you'll love
The man after me
I want this to last forever,
But forever is a long, long time
30 sad quotesSad Quotes
~I don't run from you, I walk away slowly, and it kills me , 'cause you don't care enough to stop me.
~When you walk away, I count the steps that you take.
~"I love you" is eight letters long, but then again so is "bullshit".
~I wish I had saved all the tears you made me cry, so I could fucking drown you in them.
~Who do you turn to, when the only person in the world who can stop you from crying, is the one making you cry?
~I run in the rain, so that nobody can see my tears.
~Maybe when he broke my heart, he forgot I could feel.
~They say that loving you is my biggest mistake.
But how can it be wrong if it feels so right?
If I ever make a mistake,
It's not that I love you
It's thinking that someday you'll love me too.
~Giving up doesn't always mean you're weak, sometimes it just means that you're strong enough to let go.
~The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.
~Pain doesn't hurt when it's all you've ever felt.
~My heart was taken
ChangesLife is changing rapidly
it is beyond all control
I don't like it
it's not safe
I just need somebody to hold
while I simply slave over
what to do next
All those around me
have their lives perfectly planned out
while I'm stuck
without my nest
I don't know what to do next
it's like right in front of me
someone has set a test
of impossible proportions
One day I see clearly
what is right in front of me
I don't the next
Somebody save me
from this hell I have made me
and lead me
for the best
life.life never comes in easy breaths for anyone.
it comes in gut gasps and running pants
it comes like childbirth pains
and 115 degree heat waves.
it will take the air from your lungs;
a gut punch that will often leave you like a fish pulling on oxygen
store the pain in your spine and get up again
too many people before you
have laid down in their misery.
sadness is easy, do not settle down with it.
moving on is like growing up,
do it day by day.
sift through your heart and
implant the kind of person you want to be.
your insecurities are a flock of birds
set flight to them and
let them leave.
leave your self hate, your self pity, self absorption
in the intersection, run it over and
wrap your arms around your family and friends.
pull out the blanket of your heart,
i promise you it will do you more good
loving who you love
than rotting in the cellar of your chest.
Such a simple question
Such a complicated answer
She broke you
in to a thousand pieces
You still go back to her
no matter the circumstance
no matter what she said
or what she did
you come crawling back
Is it really because of love?
Or do you not know what to do anymore?
The real question is
No Need to HowlIf with the moon, your fears do rise
I'll cloud it from your fearful eyes
You are the moon, your time is night
But sun can block the moon from sight
A monster may reside in you
But I don't believe it's your form that's true
The monster is just a little part
And I see you, the whole of your heart
If you never loved yourself enough
I'll love you enough for both of us
I know your mind in and throughout
The monster cannot drive me out
I'll break the chains that shackle you
I'll change the dreary black to blue
The blue that fills the daytime sky
The blue that means I'm by your side
I'll help you stand up for yourself
And soon you will not need my help
I'll still be here, but know that then
Nothing can haunt your mind again
AloneAlone is a melody
Along I am to be
No one to hold
For I am not bold
Is to be my tone
Like a tree in fall
I'm alone and dull
I have to one to hold closer
For the up coming winter
No one to warm me up
Beside the coco in this cup
Its swirling brown
Only bringing me down
For there is no one to share with me
So I sit along, listening to my melody
The melody I'm so used to
for I have nothing to do
The tone of being alone
it's set so deep, into my bone
Yet I love you for it...We're supposedly good friends,
yet only we know that
Others usually see us yelling
Saying how much of an idiot the other is
And I love you for it...
But when they aren't there,
When we're just by ourselves,
We can sit there talking forever,
It's like we never even snapped at each other
And I love you for it.
But sometimes I swear to god,
I hate you so much
You have no idea how many times you've annoyed me
Yet I know no one else who can tick me off that badly
And I love you for it.
There are times when you've hurt my feelings
Like when you "electricute" my sides and make me jump so badly I hurt myself
When you wind me up for laughing in a high pitched tone
When you try to trick me when you've ran out of things to wind me up about.
Yet I love you for it.
We always pick on each other
And moments when we're silent are rare
You take jokes too far
And I don't forgive you easily
But it doesn't matter...
We get along
I know you're only joking when you do all those things
Yes you annoy the hell
Even his bones were beautiful.Flesh or ivory shall be killed no more,
shall no longer be blessed with the heat of summer air.
These shores which once hummed a rythmic tune of calming serenity,
now shouts shadows of destruction on my domain.
Under rubble with precious air polluted with dust and debris,
I can no longer see the light of day.
Swallowing, swallowing, choking air,
coating my lungs so thick even the smallest gasp is triumphed.
On these very shores,
we were together;
your eyes would glow like the moonlight,
my heart would beath faster than the smallest bug's fragile wings,
and your breath would ebb like the ocean swells,
We sang and danced together without a twitch or sound,
only smiles on these shores.
It was perfect.
my lungs feel as heavy as the shrapnel inside.
Cinderblocks aching to stretch,
just to keep my heart beating.
With my last breath,
do I curse him?
Bonfire When I showed up at the bonfire I didn’t know it would have been you.
My mind was a zoo
Trying to figure out what to do.
We knew we were joking
But at the same time we weren’t.
We knew it in our hearts
That we were each others missing parts
Brought together by God.
What a wonderful feeling being able to take flight!
So, ignoring our past scars,
We reached for the stars
And now look where we are.
Almost half a year in, I see no reason for an end.
I’m not good with sappy stuff.
I’m a meat and potato girl with no fluff
I can never say the words enough;
I love you.